Category: Ramblings

Anxious Ramblings Entry #9 – Working With My “Accommodations” (w/ voice memo)

I get nervous at the thought of other people asking about my sudden changes. I wonder if I’m being watched. I should probably always look like I’m working so that they don’t think I’m trying to take advantage. I just don’t think it’s physically okay to be overdoing things ALL-YEAR-AROUND. I’m not superwoman, and I’m ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #8 – Meeting With Human Resources and the ADA (Final Results)

They were very careful with me…I am not sure if it was a “compassionate” careful or a “I don’t know what she might do next” careful. They started off with, “I just want you to keep in mind that the law does not require us to change the production standard if you are required to ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #7 – Perfectionism (w/ voice memo)

Why am I such a perfectionist? I make things harder on myself than other people do. Instead of being relieved that my accommodations meeting went well (which I will post an update soon) I’m sitting in my office with the lights off and the door closed, crying my eyes out because I’m worried that people ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #6 – Meeting With Human Resources and the ADA (Part 3)

Here I am…two days before the “official” meeting with my supervisor and our HR department, and I ask myself, “What the heck am I doing?” I went back and forth on whether I should have my husband come to the meeting as a witness and for support purposes, but my sister talked me out of it. ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #5 – Taking a Toll

My throat is very tight and I am experiencing a sharp pain in my upper back and shoulders. I feel a dull headache fading in and out…I cannot tell if it is from my teeth grinding through the mouth guard I wear at night, or if it is the depression taking a toll on my body. I ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #4 – Meeting With Human Resources and the ADA (Part 2)

My husband opened the door that led to the office of our psychiatrist and I thought silently as I sat in my chair, “Here is my time.” I just knew he was going to want to discuss the accommodations paperwork he had received from my job last week. Five seconds into entering his room, the ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #3 – Meeting With Human Resources and the ADA (Part 1)

Good Morning, I have a question and I was wondering if you had an answer. Have you ever known anyone to request employee accommodations for their work environment due to a “disability?” I am aware that physical disabilities are easier to prove than mental disabilities. I also know that the Americans With Disabilities Act (ADA) ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #2 – Am I Worthy of Accommodations?

HOW in the world do I explain to my supervisor that I am requesting accommodations? I literally laughed inside when I thought of the idea. Who am I to think that they will take my anxiety literally and allow me to drop down to 8 appointments a day rather than my normal 10? There is ...

Anxious Ramblings Entry #1 – I’m Selfish

I feel extremely selfish for tuning out people around me. If I sense any negativity or pessimism coming from someone’s spirit, I will flee far away from it. I do not feel like I am at the point where I can handle the negative thoughts of the world. I am ALREADY a negative thinker, why ...