Let me start this off by clarifying that there are no buns in the oven. (LOL) I still want to continue sharing my journey with you guys since I’ve gotten better. You guys have seen (or read) me at my worse! My journey doesn’t end just because I’m better. Besides…I’m still taking medicine for continued treatment.
So here’s what’s been going on…
I’ve been working with my new psychiatrist on finding “pregnancy safe” meds. Society likes to make mothers and mothers-to-be think that they have to completely stop taking their meds in order to conceive. This is not true. Medicine has evolved so much. Some people have illnesses that require them to take medication for the rest of their lives. After all, the ultimate goal should be for you to be healthy with limited stress during your pregnancy. There are pregnancy safe meds out there, you just have to talk to a psychiatrist and correspond with your OB/GYN that’s understanding of mental illness.
I was taking Trileptal which is a NO-NO for pregnancy, so I was tapered off while adding Abilify as a substitute. Trileptal was meant to help with my highs and lows. I could be really having a great energetic week and then the next week I’d be in a deep depression and wouldn’t leave the house. I can say Abilify is helping with that. I’ve been on a steady path since I started; however I felt a little distraught when getting off of Trileptal. My body kept feeling like it was missing something.
My husband and I went to visit the OB/GYN who delivered babies for our friends. We heard good things about him and the midwives he has in his office. He gave us a ton of good advice that I didn’t know about. He told us that although there was no research supporting the fact that Effexor could negatively effect your baby, there WAS evidence of the negative effect the fetus in animals. He said he’s seen women get pregnant and take Effexor all the way through, but with me taking 225mg of it everyday, my risk would be a little higher. He asked me a ton of questions about my family health history. He could’ve easily been one of those butt-hole OB/GYNs who won’t deliver a baby with the mother taking psychiatric meds, but he was very understanding. He also randomly asked me if I’ve had a hospitalization at the end of my assessment. I had forgotten about the whole hospitalization thing. Sounds crazy, but when you’re doing GOOD you try not to remember the BAD that once was. It was really important thing for him to know. I told him, “Yes,” and he asked, “For your depression?” Again, my answer was “Yes.” I like him. I think I got really lucky…because he could’ve said some really mean things. He said he is still gonna recommend I see a high-risk pregnancy doctor when I get pregnant. I should’ve asked what he meant by that. But anyway. Since Effexor is hard to get off of, we decided to meet up with the psychiatrist again.
My husband and I have wanted children for a while. There was a time where I wasn’t well but still wanted to have one. I know that has to be a feeling that a lot of women face. Now I’m better, not completely cured, but better than I was. I used wanting a baby as my motivation to get my mind right. I also couldn’t do it without God because he’s been helping me to get back aligned.
So…tell me why Zoloft turns me into a hog! I literally want to eat everything. Effexor has been my ride-or-die medicine for almost two years now and it is a pretty hard medicine to get off of since it binds to the receptors. It’s a serotonin norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor (SNRI) instead of an selective-serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI). I don’t know if that has anything to do with the fact that it’s hard to get off of, but I know it’s strong enough to cause withdrawal symptoms if you miss a few days. (BTW, you should never miss a few days of ANY medicine that was prescribed for you to take everyday). The last medicine I took that worked just as well as Effexor was called Pristiq, that was also an SNRI and a difficult medicine to get off of…but when I was on it, it really helped with my anxiety. Norepinephrine helps with focus and serotonin helps with your well-being. So it’s only right that SNRIs make it so you keep enough norepinephrine AND serotonin in your synapses.
OK! No more nerd stuff.
I’d like to hear you guys’ thoughts on this one. Are their any women out there afraid to conceive due to their mental illness? Have you received negative energy from family members when speaking on motherhood? Are there any mothers out there who went through their pregnancy WITH their meds? We’d like to hear from you! I especially would like to know how it is for you. I look forward to hearing your story. Let us know!
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